So, I hate birthdays.....not the cake part but the getting older part. I am not a fan! After 30 I always cringe at the thought of moving into another year.
This has been a real reflective birthday for me. So many changes have come about in the past few years and I find myself wondering a lot about direction for the future. I was driving alone in the truck Wed night and I was thinking about all of this. I was thinking about where I was and where I am now. I was wondering about what is to come. In the last few weeks I have been asked multiple times what I want for my birthday this year. So, take all the trappings of gifts and cakes and decorations away.... when it comes right down to it all I want this year is to be used! I want to be used to build bridges in the lives of those around me....bridges over hurt and loss and brokenness. I want my life to count by pouring into others. I never have wanted to just "live" and take up space here on the planet.
I was just reminded of when I was 18 headed off to Bible College with my new husband.... I was given this scripture by the staff:
Isaiah 61:1-3
"The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn; To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified."
I had forgotten......
I have learned in the last few years that there can be no healing without brokenness. No forgiveness without betrayal. No joy without sorrow. I want to bring Hope to those who know me. Love to those who feel forgotten!!!
So, although I would like to "wish" to be younger, skinny, rich. That is not my heart. My birthday wish is this year make me a Bridge!
<3
This has been a real reflective birthday for me. So many changes have come about in the past few years and I find myself wondering a lot about direction for the future. I was driving alone in the truck Wed night and I was thinking about all of this. I was thinking about where I was and where I am now. I was wondering about what is to come. In the last few weeks I have been asked multiple times what I want for my birthday this year. So, take all the trappings of gifts and cakes and decorations away.... when it comes right down to it all I want this year is to be used! I want to be used to build bridges in the lives of those around me....bridges over hurt and loss and brokenness. I want my life to count by pouring into others. I never have wanted to just "live" and take up space here on the planet.
I was just reminded of when I was 18 headed off to Bible College with my new husband.... I was given this scripture by the staff:
Isaiah 61:1-3
"The Spirit of the Lord GOD is upon me; because the LORD hath anointed me to preach good tidings unto the meek; he hath sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to them that are bound; To proclaim the acceptable year of the LORD, and the day of vengeance of our God; to comfort all that mourn; To appoint unto them that mourn in Zion, to give unto them beauty for ashes, the oil of joy for mourning, the garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness; that they might be called trees of righteousness, the planting of the LORD, that he might be glorified."
I had forgotten......
I have learned in the last few years that there can be no healing without brokenness. No forgiveness without betrayal. No joy without sorrow. I want to bring Hope to those who know me. Love to those who feel forgotten!!!
So, although I would like to "wish" to be younger, skinny, rich. That is not my heart. My birthday wish is this year make me a Bridge!
<3
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